For many years I spent my life chasing different things looking for direction. From academics, to athletics, to friends, to fitness, to work, to kids…and the list goes on. As I continued to flip flop more than a politician in the middle of a campaign, I really had no direction. I was wandering.
Have you ever been there? Chasing after something, only to fade away from that and chase the next shiny object you see?
For me, it’s a lack of endurance. A lack of discipline. I don’t do the things I need to do to continue following what it is I’m following. For example, when I was very big into fitness, I would workout all the time. However, I wouldn’t eat right all the time…especially when a pizza was in front of me. After a period of time, something else would spark my interest and working out would go on the back burner…only to return in full force a few weeks later. I made progress, however through my wandering around I never truly realized my full potential in fitness.
I’ve done this with my relationship with God before, getting complacent and lazy and fading away from God.
In the Book of Exodus, chapter 32, a similar story is recorded. The Israelites had been led out of Egypt by God under the leadership of Moses. They watched God perform miracle after miracle and continued to be blessed by God with everything they needed. As Moses went up the mountain to spend time with God, the Israelites became antsy. They stopped thinking about God and doing the things God had asked of them. They lacked faith, discipline, and endurance. They actually believed that Moses wasn’t coming back down from the mountain and that God had abandoned them.
Have you ever been there, a place where you don’t feel God’s presence in your life? A place where you’ve given up faith?
As the story continues, the Israelites asked their second in command, Aaron, to make them a new God. Huh? Make them a God? Certainly Aaron, Moses’ brother, wouldn’t do something so silly. Unfortunately he did. He melted down a bunch of gold and made a calf. Yup, a golden baby cow. The Israelites actually began to worship this golden calf instead of God. They lost faith in God and literally chased after the next shiny object they saw. Ugh.
After reading this, I couldn’t believe them! How could they? God was with them and they turned their backs on Him. Those stubborn, impatient Israelites. How could they?
Then I realized I had done the same thing before. The sickening realization of how little faith I have shown in the past.
I’ve wandered away, chasing my “golden calf;” money, relationships, jobs, and many other things.
What’s your golden calf? What do you turn to when you lose faith?
Instead of wandering from one thing to another, re-focusing on God will bring you true direction in your life.
In a time you feel that God abandoned you, as the Israelites did, don’t turn to something new to chase. Look at the Truth of who God is and know that He will never abandon you.
Those who know Your name trust in You because You have not abandoned those who seek You, Yahweh.